Dear Colton, It has been so long since I’ve sat here to write to you. I talk to you everyday in my head and blow you a kiss whenever I drive past Memorial Oaks on my way to work but it’s not the same as writing to you. Little did I know that I was…

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A few weeks ago I received one of the best surprises. When we left the hospital after losing Colton, we knew that our nurses were going to put together a memory box of Colton and give it to us at a later date. After almost three months of slow healing this box arrived at the…

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Dear Colton, Well I actually did it. I got my first tattoo a few weeks ago. Some people may be surprised to know I never had a desire to get a tattoo especially since your dad is covered with them. Don’t get me wrong, I love the look of tattoos and how they can be…

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Dear Colton, 1 month 31 days 44,640 minutes 2,678,400 seconds …have passed since I last held you in my arms and kissed your forehead. Saying goodbye has never been so hard in my life. My heart broke in pieces a month ago knowing that would be the last time I see you in your physical…

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Dear Colton, Today looked very different from how I ever pictured. When I first found out I was pregnant with you back in August, I remember looking up when you would be due. You were my little April spring baby just like me. That also meant that I would have you with me for Mothers Day,…

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Dear Colton, Not a day or moment goes by that I don’t think of you. It’s crazy how the smallest of things will make me think of you or my pregnancy. Sometimes those memories make me smile and remember a wonderful time when I was carrying you and sometimes they make my heart hurt and…

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Dear Colton, Yesterday we had your memorial service. It was a sweet time to remember and honor you. We released some balloons up to you. I hope you enjoyed seeing them. You had so many family members who never got to meet you come because they love you so much. We felt God close to…

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Being hooked up to an IV, filling out paperwork and getting introduced to the nurses who would be taking care of me was a surreal moment. This is not how it was supposed to be. There wasn’t suppose to be tears and sorrow but instead joy and excitement. I kept crying out to Alex that…

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“There’s no heartbeat,” words that would shatter and change my life in a complete instant. It feels like a bad dream that I’m constantly trying to wake myself up from.  I woke up the morning of April 24th feeling tired, sluggish, could barely walk and felt nauseous. I just assumed it was because I was…

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Sweet Family and Friends, I write this with a completely empty and broken heart. On Monday April 24th for a routine doctors appointment, two days before our scheduled inducement date, it was determined that our sweet baby had quietly passed in my womb and went straight in the arms of Jesus, as they could not…

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